Monday, November 24, 2008

alligators. love. friends. grander.

I just got home from a wonderful trip to Louisiana. My real good friend Joey Walker married the sweet, wonderful, beautiful Claire Borne. It was glorious. Everything about the trip was wonderful, but i'll try to explain some of my favorite parts...

First, I love louisiana. It is different and new and exciting. I believe that it is always fun to try new things and see new places and Louisiana allows for that in so many ways. The first night we were there, we stayed in the French Quarter only two blocks from Bourbon Street. We had dinner at a little hole in the wall restaurant. I was going to eat chicken, but decided to be brave and try new things, you only live once right?! I tried seafood gumbo. I ate cajun bbq'd shrimp. I had fried eggplant. I tasted catfish and oysters. And... I enjoyed an alligator sausage po-boy. All of this food was surprisingly delicious and the experience pumped me up for the greatness that would be a 4 day weekend in the beautiful state of Louisiana. 

We walked up and down Bourbon Street, that cool thursday night. I experienced culture shock, to say the least. I was overwhelmed with images of messy sexuality and was bombarded by the innate human nature to trivialize beautiful things, making them less important and less sacred. While I was overwhelmed and bombarded, I found myself thoroughly enjoying the experience of Bourbon St. with a group of people who are wonderful and who I sure do love deeply. 

The next morning we walked the streets of the French Quarter and had a whole new perspective on the city. We enjoyed a little jaunt down by the Mississippi River. We stopped in little touristy shops. We saw new things and took lots of pictures of new and exciting adventures. Then...we drove to Lafayette. The journey in the mini-van was super fun, I got my first glimpse of the Louisiana bayou. I saw beauty of a land I've never seen before. We ate more authentic cajun food and pondered the meaning behind a really interesting mural. 

We enjoyed each other, we enjoyed the company of people we love so very deeply. We toured a new town and loved it. The wedding was glorious. Everything about it was fun and perfect. The details and extras were sweet. Joey and Claire were lovely. Their love was displayed and celebrated and I honestly cannot think of a better way to describe how perfect their wedding was. Claire was absolutely ravishing as only one so deeply loved could be. Joey was, well, JOEY. My heart danced with joy. My boys looked so good and grown up and took their responsiblility as Joey's chosen few seriously as they loved him on his special day. 

I loved: the ceremony, the story of the bicycle, the violin, the head-bonks, the jokes, the prayer, the vows, the simplicity, the cake, the food, the Polaroid guest book, the dancing, the pictures, the new friends, the old friends, the laughter, the white shrimping boots that the bridal party wore, Joey and Claire's choreographed first dance, the tennis balls, riding off as a married couple on a tandem bike.  

Though the wedding was over the party sure was not. We went on a little adventure to try and find live alligators. We did not succeed in our goal but we did get to see a little more of the city. We stopped by Louisiana State University, Lafayette where we took our own tour of the little alligator habitat in the middle of of the campus. Then off we went to the home of Claire Walker for a good old fashioned Cajun wedding after party. We ate red beans and rice and learned the Cajun two step, not the mention the Carolina shag. How much fun could one person have?!!?...MORE!!!

While the boys made their way back to the airport to come home, I enjoyed a good nights sleep to make sure that I'd be able to enjoy my last day in LA. As we headed back to New Orleans we took a detour off of hwy 10 to check out the LSU campus. I think I'm a Tigers fan now :) We took some pictures of Mike VI the LIVE tiger mascot. We marveled in the glory that is Tiger Stadium where the LSU football team plays. We checked out where Shaq has his roots as a college basketball star, in LSU's state of the art basketball stadium. AWESOME!!!!

We lollygagged around New Orleans a little longer, taking pictures and enjoying the city on a beautiful sunny Sunday afternoon. We watched some street dancers and photographed human statues. Before leaving, we watched the IMAX film, Hurricane on the Bayou. I'm glad that we had the opportunity to remember the tragedy that took place in Louisiana, that we might go home and remember the grander and wonder that is the beautiful state but that we would not forget the people who were affected by the natural disaster only 3 short years ago. 

What a wonderful trip. What a wonderful live I live. What wonderful people I have to enjoy this life with. Thank you Jesus for Joey and Claire, may their love flourish. Thank you Jesus for my friends. Thank you for fun times and new adventures. Help me not to forget!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

I believe people!

I believe people. If you tell me something and you sound in the least bit convicted or simply have a convincing argument. I believe you. Some would say that I am gullible. I would say that I am trusting!

This fact has gotten me into a tiny bit of trouble. Nothing too serious, but the kind of trouble that leads me to lie in bed at night and develop serious anxiety trying to figure out what I think is true. I’m bad, but getting better, at deciphering between the truth and a lie. Most topics that come up don’t really matter in the greater scheme of things, which is nice. But some things that have been coming up in conversation lately, have led me to believe that I need to buckle down and decide what I know.

I still believe people. I still trust you. I just need to figure out what it looks like to really know and believe something for myself. So hey, do me a favor choose your words with me. Know what you believe and trust before you share it with me!

Monday, November 17, 2008

what does it look like?

What does it look like to follow Jesus with your life? I wonder about the implications of this question on a daily basis. I’ve been a Christian for a while now. I’ve gone through seasons of knowing, very clearly, what it looks like to follow Jesus, but I’ve also gone through seasons of floundering to be able to even call myself a Christian. And the more I think about it, the more I’m sure, that is exactly it. That is the answer. Go through the seasons. Figure out the every day.

I’ve thought through the connotation of not knowing why or how to choose Jesus’ way for me. I’ve thought it through so many times that I find it difficult to continue to think about it. I wonder oftentimes what it would be like to put spiritual life on autopilot. The kind of autopilot that would choose for me, everyday, to choose the best life that God has to offer me. Wouldn’t that just be so easy?!

I’ve been thinking about these things because of one particular conversation I had a few weeks ago. I was sitting around a table enjoying a little Lunch After Church ( I use capitol letters because I’ve found this little life experience to be one of my very favorite, one that brings such deep joy and gratification to my life that I’m going to forever refer to it as an event in time, to be capitalized, I digress). So, we’re enjoying a little lunch and conversation leads me to a place where I cannot conjure within myself any kind of answer to simple theological questions. I think it is extremely important to think through and have an answer for the reasons why you believe what you believe. I think that is not a concept thought up by me, but I’m pretty sure I used my gift of acquisition and stole it from the Apostle Paul. All the while… I didn’t have any answers.

I felt like I did when I first went to college. I felt like I needed to go back to the roots of my faith and figure out the reasons why I wanted to find out what it looks like to follow Jesus with my life. How can I even begin to ask that question of myself if I do not have a foundation to truth to begin to build that life upon?

I don’t have any answers, so if that is what you were hoping for as you began to read this (my first blogger blog), I’m sorry to disappoint you. I usually don’t have any answers to my ponderings. I just go about my business, thinking about my life, questioning my motives, and yours, and developing thoughts and hopes from the places and questions that my heart beats for.

I talk a lot about my heart, because I have found it to be the place where my ponderings lead me. My heart and the heart of the One who created my heart. I’m excited to see where the beginnings of this conversation lead me…

Here’s what I’m going to do…
I’m going to read my bible. I’m going to have a biblical reason for the things that I believe.
I’m going to research these crazy contemporary topics of conversation that I find myself in. I’m going to know what I think, and what others think, I’m going to be educated in my ponderings.
I’m going to laugh.
I’m going to talk about it out loud with anyone that will listen in order that my mind doesn’t explode or cave in on itself. I’m going to allow this mind of mine to move and change and grow as I daily draw closer to my Savior.

Enjoy my ponderings!!!